Three things you want to say to different people

1. Please don't give up. I swear things will get better and it may not seem like it is right now but sooner or later you'll realise it will. And then your whole life will be different and you'll be happy again. It hurts so much seeing you hurt like this and I can't do shit about it. I hate that feeling. You deserve so much more and you are so much more than you are thinking you are this exact moment.
You're a beautiful young women and you are the strongest person I've ever met. Don't throw all that away just because it's an easier solution. You are worth fighting for so fight for yourself.

2. There are nights I get panic attacks that make me feel like shit. I think about all the things I ever wanted to say to you and everything I want you to know. Some nights I think it's best that I write it all down in an e-mail and send it to you so that you actually know how I feel and how I've been feeling the last year but I never do. I still get quiet every time the 22nd of every month comes along and those dates hurt me the most. I can't get you out of my head because you meant so much to me and still.

3. I envy you in so many ways. But in a good way, not the jealous kind. After all you've been through now you're having the life you always deserved. Soon you'll be married and having a kid of your own. And I'll always stand by your side and help out wherever I can. You'll always be my little sister even if we're not related. Blood doesn't mean a thing. You're family forever.